Mama in the City

We survived our first two weeks at home with our sweet Josephine and she has fit right into our family just perfectly. Big brother Ben is doting and his love for her is so evident. I'm still trying to adjust to being up through the night with a newborn and then up for the day with a busy boy, and at times it feels a little bit painful. I keep wondering, when does the adjustment become easier? When will I stop feeling so sleepy? I'm sure my 3 year old is sufficiently tired of hearing me say, 'No Ben, mummy is tired'.

Today my husband helped out and took our boy to his morning gym class just up the street. This gave me one luscious hour to just be with Josie. On her own, the baby is totally doable. So, I had a bath and changed the bed and felt semi decent, just sleepy.

It seems that the tiredness lingers on until about 10 pm and then I get the urge to watch numerous episodes of 'United States Of Tara' on my laptop while my baby sleeps next to me. Why am I not also sleeping? I curse myself in the morning, but repeat the same thing come the next night.

Today I pushed on and everyone was dressed and calm and we went out for a sun filled walk. Doesn't life feel easier when the sun is shining? We played and strolled and stopped along the way to nurse Josie. My goal was to grab a coffee and do a small grocery shop. This was a big deal for me since it was my first purposeful outing with the two. I'm happy to report that it was a success and no one cried.